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To Be Erased copy .:vnt:.

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Edit: Sorry if I haven't been so active lately... sic below

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Do you ever get a gift? like think one of the most meaningful gifts between a person and you. even if it were a draft? you blink. You remember from way back that this gift was one of the most important
things that ever existed to you and another person. but you blink. and then they suddenly replace you on the drawing with someone else. Your hands are clean, and you never dared to hurt them, you never tried.
They suddenly don't treat you as you were anymore. See you as a nuisance who is only there for occaisional good. You try to seek for answers. Discovery comes to find.
That other person was your replacement. flat and flat. the picture includes everyone in their life who are close. You stopped existing. Someone else has replaced you. Middle dead center.
They are not they  to you anymore in sudden, they have shifted their feelings to your replacement. seamlessly. you grit your teeth.

I really didn't mind it until I realised it. Deep down somewhere in my most treasured folders were(were) several small drafts. they made it. they were close to my heart. I remember the picture was one of the sweetest ones
I ever had from a person.
 I thought oh oh oh this could be it
a gift for you and i?

The eraser drew nearer and soon I was but a smudgemark only to be perfetly replaced like nothing.

Feigning that it never existed I saw the picture, they, that very very same picture I dug up in my drafts folder...I never fought back.

Memories which you thought even as very important someone and more were the most important thing ever to me.
Effortlessly replaced me with someone else as if it were nothing. Someone who stumbles into the scene without effort.
were they better? did they do a good job? was it youtube or was it a site? I never understand but these shouldn't bug me. they did.
Perhaps perhaps were the someone...to them were someone who they clung to while you were ignored? Tossed aside? treated indifferent
despite how much you cared and cared the same throughout (or was).

It made my heart heavy but I guess it was okay. I thought, eh it was just one instance I guess. one treasured picture is not bad. since there are others.
I am timid and I am nice,  but then I remembered  the pandora's box. and it opened.
Our pictures. Almost every picture. Every gift we had from th.

 that almost everypicture we had of us. was originally made for somebody else. turned into a YCH where I'm just the base.
yet has the audacity to lie to my face and post videos as if I don't know.

I have no words. I wishto seek reconciliation that I did not realise any of this. and that ignorance is bliss. But all I could muster up, were two symbols with no context.
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Fyto-teh-Dalmatian's avatar
Someone replaced you? That's awful! Well try not to worry, you've got plenty of people who still care about you, Metie.